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浏览着友人的部落格，阅读着他这几年来的生活点滴、经历、见解......突然发觉，这是我认识的他吗？
是他变了？生活改变了他？工作相对的安稳，经济较许可，所以人生的规划也不同了？可否是网路开辟了一片让他畅所欲言的空间？还是我一开始就从没了解过他？或是过于自我，认定对方屁股摇一摇，我就知道他在想什么，遮蔽了自己的双眼？还是以往那强势的我，逼得他把真实的自己掩藏起来？
原来，他竟是一个那么有强烈自我意识的人。

My husband - The Devil

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

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The Temperance

You are Temperance

Time. Ages. Transformation. Involuntary change

Temperance is another card of aspiration, but also of much change. It often
represents complex situations. Positively, you can harmonize contrary
forces.

Temperance is, on a surface level, about "tempering." The original pouring from cup to cup might have been about cutting wine with water. So this is a card about moderation. There is, however, another angle to the card, that of merging seemingly impossible opposites. Sagittarius, the centaur, merges beast and man into a unique creature. And then there is the bow and arrow, one moving, one stationary, working together to point the way. Temperance may be, at first glance, a warning for you to "temper" your behavior, to cut your wine with water. But it may also be a reminder to that seemingly irreconcilable opposites may not be irreconcilable at all. Belief that fiery red and watery blue cannot be merged may be the only thing standing in the way of blending the two. Change the belief, measure out each with care, and you can create otherworldly violet.

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My verdict: Rather accurate. I had a friend who once told me that he felt I'm a person of opposites - dependent yet independent. My profile test also revealed similar results. i.e. I possess opposite traits. Rather unsual. Perhaps that's y I often feel troubled......

Thank you....

宝贝经常会向我“示爱”。一天里可以说上好几次"I love you", "Kiss me on my lips, Mummy"等。

今天，她却说了一句最动人的话。当我们在看Elmo's Outdoor Adventure VCD时，她突然转过头来对我说:"Thank you for loving me."

一句话抵消了所有的"I don't want you already", "I'm angry with you"......

Trauma

Tucks!! It's so painful and the amount of blood! Be gentle, gentle PLEASE!!!

Thought that I should go for a dental visit before going overseas. It had been year since my last visit, which was done with great unwillingness due to persistent toothache.

I'd always have a phobia of visiting the dentist thanks to the regular dental checks by those ohhhh sssoooo GENTLE dental nurses back in school days. As such, I'd never visit any dentist unless it's absolutely necessary after I escape their clutches.

However, my previous visit a year ago somehow took away a little of the anxiety. Although it took me 3 visits to rectify my problem, the dentist had been rather gentle and careful, perhaps because I'd mentioned to him that I'm afraid of dental visits. Thus, this time round, I convinced myself that those horror visits of yester-years are all long gone.

Ha! Bad luck! Although it's by no fault of the dentist. He was just doing his job, trying to give my pearlies a thorough cleansing. I should have given him a "warning", then he might have been more prudent with his digging and patching etc.

Note: The 2 visits were done by different dentists.

矛盾

很多时候，我告诉自己不要打孩子，特别是了解自己脾气不好，容易动怒，深怕一时之气下，会做一些日后后悔莫及的事。宝贝一天天长大，慢慢地，她也开始意识到自己是独立个体，有自己的想法、情绪，会发问、顶嘴、耍赖、发怒......脾气更是和妈妈同出一辙，可说是有过之而无不及。有一天，我终于忍无可忍拿藤条打了她（不是真的藤条，而是那类撑气球的塑料管，打了没那么疼）。你晓得吗，这小鬼还胆敢跟我抢藤条！本来只想打她的小手心，结果打不着，干脆把她捉起来往屁股抽了一下。她当然又哭又闹，嘴里虽然喊怕怕，可是行为上还是一样坏，性格倔得很！接下来的一、两天，情况没改善，还变本加厉，连三更半夜也起来闹。结果当然又是被打。她总爱在胡闹、乱耍脾气之际，还要妈妈抱抱等，而且是无论你做什么，她都不满意，就是故意找麻烦。很多时候，心里是想上前抱她的，可是又担心这样会养成她无理取闹的个性，所以她越闹，我越不睬她，一定要她认错。她硬是不肯，就在那儿展开“拉锯战”。
有时，感觉上，若我态度先软化，去抱她，她可能更快恢复，也不需搞得自己气得快发疯，可是真的很怕这样的妥协会照成将来宠坏她的严重下场，让她变得娇纵、无理。毕竟人人都让她，管教她的责任都落在我一个人身上。当她闹起来时，枕边人给予的并不是体谅，而是"Y do u ALL have to do this every night?!"难道我不累吗？真的很想撞墙死了算了。
我到底是个怎样的妈妈？是否能教好我的孩子？做得对不对？我没有答案。
唯一庆幸的是，至少到目前为止，虽然妈妈对她是最凶的，也是唯一会打她的，宝贝始终最爱我，即使教训了她后，她还是会要找我。会不会担心有一天她终于讨厌妈妈，讨厌那个唯一会对她严厉的妈妈？当然会。可是这是我为人母的责任，只希望她永远能明白一切都是为了爱她。
小宝贝，打在儿身，痛在娘心。你长大了是否能够体会？

《生病》

I don't believe it
Baby En En 又生病了
这次比上次还要更严重
除了发烧还咳嗽 和流不停的鼻水
为何常生病 刺痛我的心.....

(sing to the tune of 《认错》)

Sigh....

**Kiss Kiss**

Baby En woke up very early today.

Daddy just gave Mummy a good-bye kiss, when all of a sudden Baby En sat up. How could Daddy miss this opportunity to get a kiss from his Princess? Then came," I cannot kiss Daddy's lips." "Why?""Because I can only kiss Mummy's lips."

Hahahahahaha. So she did remember what I told her!