Carpe Diem - easier said than done for a self-professed procrastinator. But for the love of my life, I finally keyed my first sentence, then the second, and the third... as a recording of memories I'd want to remember, good or bad, a gift from Mommy to U - Dear Baby En

"From Baby En to Baby Kang, both my darlings, equally precious. May this journal keep u company, when Mummy can no longer be there......"

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Wednesday 30 September 2009

My Baby Kang, soon u'll be 4 mths old......

It's been quite some time since I last blog about my little Princey, least talk about uploading his pictures. 2 more days n u'll be officially 4 mths old......

From the tiny little guy plagued by jaundice, frequently feeling tired n spending most part of ur days simply feeding n napping, suffering from colic n reflex thus wailing during almost every feed, wanting mummy n daddy to carry n rock u to sleep everytime and that BIG hernia on ur tummy...... it had been a TIRING yet truly FULFILLING time, especially having to struggle with another kid who needs equally much attention.

Today, the hernia is almost gone (merely a small stubble as compared to the 1 inch budge), u've gone from a tiny 3kg kitty to a respectable 7.7kg (as of last Fri). Although u're still pretty "gassy", it rarely bugs u. Much as I would like u to be able to sleep on ur own or through the night, u still need some help like swinging in sarong, breast feeding etc, however, I'm seeing some light at the end of the tunnel. For e.g., after u wake from a feed on the bed, sometimes u can go sooth urself to sleep again, though the frequent shaking of ur head against the bedding is probably going to cause some balding =P, u went to sleep this morning (n last evening) in ur rocker while I was making a rackets with the toys on them (Funny boy, with all the noise...).

Oh boy, some thing has not changed since Day 1 - u r one Greedy Pig. The Princess always needed to feed for at least 45min, even from the bottle. While u, my darling, needs just 5-10mins to finish ur meals most of the time. Good news is, u know when u're full and reject whatever attempts to feed u after that. But do u know that u can be really impatient during feeding?  Nowadays, everytime b4 Mummy's milk let down, u'll be frustrated till the milk comes flowing fast. Baby, I'm not a TAP. Just look at u staring at others eating. U're not ready yet, at least not for another 2-3 mths. Look at u gulping down ur probiotics! I can't catch up with u with a spoon!

Ur plump little hands, they are OH SO CUTE! To think Mummy hid them behind tiny mittens for a full 3 mths, all bcos u scratched urself so badly with those razor-sharp nails and we were too scared to trim them, in case we snipped ur little fingers (Daddy was guilty of that :( ). Once they were out of their little prisons, it didn't take them long to go on their escapade of exploration - aren't they beautiful? U never stopped marveling at them. U love to hold them together, as if u're praying, whenever u're feeding at my breast (thanking God for Mummy's milk??). It's ok if u love to tug at my shirt, bra etc but please my darling, don't PINCH me... sob sob... It'll be great if u can spare whatever u can get hold of from that little mouth of yours. Having ur little digits n clothing soaking wet with ur drool is more than "appetising" to look at already.

Mummy know that u do not like to be on ur tummy n hasn't quite gotten to flipping over yet, but u'd been doing a good job turning, getting on ur back from ur sides since u were 2 mths. Must be due to ur round, fat limps (like rolling a ball haha). And those back muscles, aren't they strong, trying to do sit-ups in ur car seat, rocker etc. Opps! Be careful! And u fell flat on ur face while sitting on the bed. Who asked u to lean forward?!

Soon, u'll be as big as jiejie. How I'll miss ur baby antics then...

(Been trying to upload pics n videos but can't seem to do so... sigh)

Friday 18 September 2009

家有贱狗

很少提到我的长女--Fur Fur。

其实,有关她的故事还真不少!

这小捣蛋贪吃得很,只要一有机会,决不放过任何夺取食物的良机,即便是骨头,一旦被她刁到,你甭想能从她嘴里搅出。每当看到某人在进食,她一定凑过来,目的有两个:博取同情,摆出可怜兮兮的样子,盼能骗得你施舍些许食物给她。其二,则是趁人不备,从对方手中抢夺,并以迅雷不及掩耳的速度,将战利品吞食入肚。所有人都曾哉在她口下,特别是恩较小的时候,就常因此与她发生“口角”。

更厉害的是,她总会等到家无一人之时,跳上餐桌,只要让她嗅到一丝食物的气味儿,她一定用尽一切方法,将之取出,我们也因此折损了好几个塑料盒/罐。

不仅如此,她的性子跟一般小孩儿一样,如果太长时间被忽略,便会开始作“坏事”,如乱撕报纸,随地拉撒等等。最近一次,就发生在昨夜。我们吃了晚餐回来,一打开门,便看到满地的奶瓶盖、奶嘴......原来她弄翻了灭菌器,还刁走了瓶奶头去玩。这已不是第一次,在恩小的时候,她也曾偷过恩的奶嘴去吮吸,那画面还真搞笑!平时,她破坏一番后,一旦有人回来,便会“识相”地找地方躲藏。这回却更胜一筹,居然还搞离家出走,夹着尾巴头低低的往门外钻,不敢回来,直至她老爸把她抓回来。一进屋,便躲到长椅下,想必她也知道这次的篓子可闯大了!

可她也有可爱的地方。由于她是个大声婆,又挺“鸡婆”的,不管是电话响,还是有人回来,或是水沸了,她都要大声报告,结果不是吓倒康康,就是吵醒他。下场呢,就是被“封嘴”。一到下班时间,或是任何时候,我们事先知道会有人到访,一定会先裹上她的嘴,从那时起,她会变得惨兮兮、无精打采地趴在地上。通常她一看到有人拿出她的裹嘴带,便会找地方躲。今天,她却一反常态,在恩的爷爷来接她上学之前,竟然自动自发刁了她的裹嘴带给我老爸。难道她是要为昨天的过失赎罪?还是已经认命了?

真是家有贱狗!

Tuesday 15 September 2009

我永远的宝

近几个月,脾气越来越暴躁,很容易为了小事发火,对恩也特别没耐性,无法忍受较高分贝的声量,下巴总是潜意思地咬得很紧,导致偏头痛。更可怕的是,对于自己的情绪,越发难以控制,真的感觉好像已经患上了--抑郁症。

为什么我会对孩子的多话感到厌烦?面对她的发问,总是表现得那么没耐性?动不动就对她吼叫......曾经何时,我变得那么恐怖、那么面目可憎?我真的很害怕,害怕在她的成长造成无法弥补的阴影,害怕从此失去这个孩子。这不是我想成为的母亲。

我的宝贝,如果有一天,你不再爱妈妈,认为妈妈讨厌你、不疼你,我希望你能原谅妈妈。

妈妈对你的爱,永远不会变 。

Wednesday 9 September 2009

"Kindly" Advice

Be it with the Princess or the Prince, I'd been "blessed" with people who'd come to me with their "kindly" advices - u shouldn't carry/ rock the baby to sleep, u shouldn't/ should use the sarong, sucking the hand is better/ pacifier is better, u should supplement with formula etc etc.

Many a times, these "words of wisdoms" turned out to be contradictory, as they were based on the individuals' experiences n beliefs. But they were all done with the same motive - trying to tell me that I had done the WRONG thing. And that if I had started off with their method(s), things would have been easier....

U can say that I am difficult to "educate" or I'm plain stubborn, but the fact is, if I listened to every one of the well-meant advices, wouldn't my kids be totally confused? In the end, being "right" in the eyes of some, simply meant that I'm still doing the "wrong" things and I'd end up with frustrated kids who needed to be re-programmed again n again.

Who wouldn't want to do things the easy way, let the babies sleep on their own, "teach" them to sleep throughout the night, ensure they r free from colic/ reflux or whatever that's causing them discomfort? Before u start "sharing" ur "expert" views, do bear in mind that all babies r born unique, into families of differing cultures, made up of parents n grandparents having their own sets of beliefs, tolerance level n working manner. It would be really kind to share some experiences with people u see facing the same child-rearing difficulties, for e.g. "My baby had the same prob. I tried XXXX n it worked. Perhaps u may want to give it a try." But if ur intention is otherwise....

Imagine when u're trying to sooth a cranky baby to sleep, rocking n carrying him in ur arms, walking around. For those who r blessed with sleep-on-their own babies, u probably won't understand how frustrating n tiring this can be. How would u feel if someone comes up and say, "U shouldn't be rocking him/ her. That's y he's/ she's so used to it now." In the first place, if the baby can go to sleep without fussing n wailing ON THEIR OWN, why would anyone want to make life difficult for themselves? Anyway, such an "advice" does not offer any solution, and only serves the purpose of trying to "CORRECT" someone. If that's all the kindness u can offer, PLEASE, LEAVE ME ALONE!

I'm blessed with 2 kids that give me joy, to be able to see them daily, sharing their smiles n love. Though they r definitely not the ez-to-take-care type, both needing extra extra extra efforts to get them to sleep (though the prince seems a little better), I do appreciate some empathy n people willing to share ways they'd tried n worked, however if the best u can offer is pointing out my "mistakes", it will be most sympathetic of u to just zip-up.

THANK Q!!