Finally fulfilled my promise

Last year's March holidays, I brought En to the Science Centre. That was our first visit. Well, technically speaking, we only made it to the Admission counter.....

I was into my third trimester then. By the time we made it through the MRT ride, walk from the station to the SC in the extreme heat and humidity, I was half-dead. To make things worse, the queue at ticket counter was LONG. After standing in line for a couple of minutes, I really felt like fainting. It was worse than the walk there, much much worse. Somehow, I just couldn't tolerate standing still during my last pregnancy. My heartbeat would always race like crazy, and I would feel totally breathless and faint. In the end, we decided on McDonald's :p.

This year, I was determined to pay it back. Indeed, we made it, with both the Princess n Prince in tow. Though it wasn't a long visit, she didn't manage to play at the outdoor Water Play area (as I was the only adult and the weather wasn't permitting too) and Mummy wasn't able to walk/ talk her through all the exhibits, nonetheless, she really enjoyed herself (asked me to bring her there again on 2 separate occasions). The space exhibit, with the interactive corridor and pond, was one of her favourite. Of course, we spent a considerable time in the nursing room hehe (rather well-thought out, with toys for accompanying tots, even comes with shower foam and powder in case u need to cleanse the baby).

Tuesday was spent at the home of an ex-schoolmate (from N Kindy) as T, the mum of a pre-nursery kid, was going back to US this coming Easter. Another short visit but it's great to know we have made some long-term friends :). It was really thoughtful of M to organise the event.

Wednesday was another gathering session with my NIE kakies P n M. It was really nice and accommodating of them to come all the way to YT to meet me, as I had to lug both my darlings along as usual. En tried to behave and was generally ok while Kang was quite a handful. So I had to let him play with some plastic spoon and plates, while clutching on to him all the time, making sure he kept his hands off whatever that's on the table, nor diving off the bench etc... Truly tiring but definitely worth it.

Hmmmmmmmmm, what did we do on Thursday?? My old, hazy brain can't quite recall... Was it swimming or something else??? Anyway, I'm quite sure we had some entertaining activities...

Friday was the grand finale, when I finally didn't have to be the ONLY adult. Daddy took leave and we had our sandwich-making session in the morning before we set-off for the zoo! Although we didn't get to do much again, besides the tram ride and one show (thanks to our wonderful weather), at least we got the zoo pass! So, we're going this Friday again, to celebrate En's 5th birthday. Yeah!!

Let's hope that was a good start and I'll continue to bring them around during the school holidays despite them being so energy-draining and challenging.

I Still Miss....

..... the snow-capped mountains and white flurries in the cold winter months

..... the trees of white, purple, pink following the thawing of the ice

..... the wonderful summer days when kids come out to play

..... the dazzling red and orange, betraying the tranquility that surrounds

Not forgetting...

..... the Wonderful people, the Peace, the Family life that I treasured and once beheld.


"We have gone one full cycle. Opportunity knocks again. Truth be it, I wish for another chance, even if it may be a short one. However, deep inside, I have a feeling it won't be the same. This time round, we probably won't go......"

Mummy Beware

I must say, Boys and Gals do develop differently.

Before he crosses over to being 10 mth-old, he has quite gotten the hang of cruising around, be it crawling, pulling himself to stand on furniture and walking while hanging on. This week he went a step further as he learned how to go from a crawling position to sitting upright. He has also gotten to putting tiny things like his biscuits n stickers into his mouth (Horrors of horrors! Where did he get the stickers?? From the stacker drawers, which he readily tore off, where his dear sister had painstakingly pasted and "decorated". This is also one danger spot he enjoyed pulling himself to stand).

Greedy as ever, whenever he watches people eating, he gets angry after a while, wanting to taste whatever others put into their mouth, even when he had just been fed. This boy has an adventurous attitude for food and anything at large. That spells TROUBLE, for I know there are people out there ever ready to shove him anything, including Ice Cream!!! Especially, he has a penchant for SWEET stuff, that includes sweet nothings haha. For if naughty Mummy is to raise her voice or scold him, he spares no effort letting the entire world knows by wailing as loud as his little lungs would take him, and it's not just for a while u know.

Putting his excellent motor skills aside, this rascal certainly should put in more effort on his cognitive skills. Though I had frequently signed with him "milk", "eye", "nose" etc., apparently he picks what seems more interesting only, like his “鼓掌”(clap hands) and "Bye Bye". With his “鼓掌”, he tags his own meaning and usages too. For e.g., he claps when his happy, excited, wants to be carried, sometimes when he wants milk.... The sister was the other way round, probably due to the fact that she was more focused as a baby (getting more and more distracted as she grows :().

As always, I'm looking forward to his new adventures, although it gets tougher for me to rest and sleep. But that's also where all the fun comes in, one day when they are all grown up, at least I have these memories to accompany me :).

2 + 2

Yes, he has 4 teeth in total now - All 4 center incisors are out. Strangely, the first upper incisor which popped later than the two lower incisors is growing faster. Now, it's a really funny sight with that one, single tooth clearly more visible and attention-catching than the other three. Match that with his “奸臣” (translate into hokkien for a more vivid picture of what I'm trying to paint) laughter - the "heh heh heh heh heh" gong gong laughter (which sounds presently musical, sweet and de-stressing to me) he loves making whenever he knows we're going gai gai, it never fails to bring a smile to my face.

He has gotten quite mobile by now, and DANGEROUS. Put him on the bed, before u know it, he is ready to plunge down. Once, Daddy had to dash from the loo, just in time to catch him diving off the bed. However, it was a tad too late. Although there wasn't a big "bang" but the damage was done. He grazed his head on the ground and tore his skin. That sent him wailing for quite a while (it must be really bad for he is usually quite "immune" to pain). Did he learn his lesson?? How I wish he had.... Now I can't even sleep in peace (besides his regular wakings), as he flips around so much, he's either kicking me all the time, else I'm plain worried he may fall off the bed, even with 2 pillows stacked. Put him on the floor and he aims for wires, door stopper, fan etc. What happens when jiejie n Mum need to bath? I put him in his tub (emptied n dried) with some toys and kept him in the toilet so he can see us, at the same time, I can keep an eye on him. Guess what? He toppled over. Does he still enjoy "walking"? U bet he does! And he's still as reckless, just 冲、冲、冲 and bull-doze all the way - typical commando style.

PHEW.

The boy did get on to crawling a little this week. Sometimes he'd get on his fours and lunge forward, or moving backwards without quite lifting his legs off... though it's truly getting very tiring for me, as he wanted to "walk" all the time, as long as he's awake.

More Teeth

The Upper Central Right Incisor is out too. Looks around the same size as the lower ones. Didn't quite see the left one. Probably will be a funny sight if he ends up with one tooth significantly longer than the other while they are growing out :p

Total Count = 3 (2 x LC, 1 x UCR)

再出发

送走懒洋洋的牛，迎接猛虎的到来，是重新出发的时候了。这一年多的光景，对他而言，应该是卧薪尝胆的体验。如今，也是拨云见月的时机了。无论如何，相信这会是个好的开始。希望接下来的日子，他能够如鱼得水，再创高峰，活得更快乐、更自在。

对于小公主，妈妈还是要对你说“对不起”。你可能会以为妈妈对你的爱少了，越来越没耐性，也没什么时间陪你。其实妈妈心里也感到很抱歉。请你对妈妈多点忍耐与包容，等弟弟大一点，妈妈再好好补偿你。

小王子呢，你就像姐姐baby时，一样可爱，也是个万人迷。性子跟妈妈一样急，超好动，也老爱自顾自地玩，妈妈教你做什么，你都好似“你教你的，我做我的”。也无所谓啦，只要你开心、健康，未来的日子还很长，就慢慢来。

妈妈呢，请你收敛收敛你的脾气，对孩子多点耐心，少点责备，对老公多点体谅，少点埋怨，对父母多点孝顺，少点理所当然，对公婆多开一只眼闭一只眼，少点挑剔。这样，别人多点开心，你也少点烦恼。

也希望所有人能多多包容妈妈，关怀妈妈，让她在忙得没时间照顾自己，睡眠超不足，越来越像黄脸婆的同时，知道还有许多人爱她、appreciate她。

8 mths

Finally decided to "upgrade" his Mag Mug to a Straw-Top. The Daddy was questioning if he's "up to it". Well, I started Princess on hers when she was about the same age, besides, it was stated on the packaging that 8+ mths will be an appropriate age.

3 days ago, he had his first taste of how a big boy drinks. YO!!!!!!!! He got it right on his first try and started sipping from the straw pretty soon. Other than the occasional choking (which he does when he was drinking from spoon too), all has been well so far. In fact, he's drinking more as compared to the Spout-Top, which I have to admit, we have little mileage out of it.

Oh, he just had his first snack too. Yesterday, I got him some baby puffs. It was hilarious when I put the first one into his almost toothless mouth (his 2 lower incisors which sprouted not long ago r still pretty much TINY), his face scrunched a little, as if questioning "What the xxxx is that ??". Then, he started sucking it. Strangely, though he enjoys shoving stuff into his mouth, he hasn't quite figured that he can put the puffs in there n would rather play with them. Guess it won't be too far into the future before he finally gets the hang of it :p.

Although he can get on all his fours and lift his tummy fully off the floor, he still prefers to roll around to get what he wants, instead of crawling. However. this Demolition Boy (he tore a blade off his spinning fan 2 mths ago) really likes to "walk", always wanting to get on the floor (even when he's on the bed, he will want to push himself off head-on), and "walk" around. Though he can stand pretty well when he is hanging onto furniture, but he definitely cannot be "trusted", for he'll simply let go n lunge if something catches his attention. Danger, danger!

Oh dear, I wonder what amount of trouble is he going to get into real soon......

I think I saw them....

...very faint, almost translucent thin strips on the lower gum - where the 2 lower central incisors should be when they sprout. This was the first time I spotted them, yesterday. Perhaps because they were not exactly on the upper most portion of the gum which is clearly visible, and the fact that he enjoys thrusting his tongue out when he opens his mouth. Nonetheless, with the drooling increasing, and his ever growing interest in putting whatever he can get his hand on into his mouth to bite (YiYi was a victim when he tried to chew her arm while she was having her dinner). As much as I await his first tooth to cut with anxiety, I'm sure I will miss the wide, toothless, charming smile that he is ever ready to share with me now. Bless be it that I am able to log this beautiful picture in my mind forever.

Many Chinese believe that teeth cutting causes diarrhoea. Coincidentally, Kang has been having the runs since last Wednesday. When I mentioned to my mum about his sprouting pearlies, she immediately drew the connection between the 2 events (not surprising huh). Well, I guess there must be some form of "scientific" explanation available. Let's put it this way - When babies are teething, the gum discomfort causes them to frequently pick things to bite and chew, including their own hands and feet. Thus, the chances of them catching virus and bugs increase, therefore we see more cases of diarrhoea happening around teething babies (With Kang, I guess it's worse cos he grabs at everything n anything all the time. Plus, he enjoys going around "seducing" strangers to play with him n carry him). Sounds logical right? So u see, the activity of teething does not cause diarrhoea in itself, it just raises the possibility of the baby's exposure to the virus (Doc Tan and her theory... haha). Anyway, this on-going episode has severely reduced whatever sleep that I can get to almost Zero (my poor Panda eyes). Looking on the bright side, things seem to be a little better these 2 days. Hopefully, this marks an impending end. On the side, the funny thing about this boy is that other than being more grouchy when the pain comes and excessive wakings n "bombings" (easily more than 10 changes of nappies per day), he's still generally happy, eats well and ever-s0-energetic (even with a super sore bottom)!! Count that a blessing.

I think I saw something else too - he seemed to "tell" me he wanted milk milk yesterday. While I was getting him ready to bathe yesterday morning, he just wasn't pleased (unusual) and was wailing even after I took off his clothing. Then, I saw it - his little fingers opening and closing like what I would show him at times when he's having his feed. Although suspicious, I tried offering my breast and WALAH, it worked!!! Perhaps another coincidence.........

Who's the New HERO???

Find out now.... There can only be 1!

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The Little Helper

The Prince literally left me in a big puddle of SHIT today, after his 3rd "bombing" exercise in the morning. Romper, bed sheet, mattress protector and his chou chou (his bean pillow), all weren't spared from the attack.

"Best" part of it was when he started getting grouchy from waking up earlier than usual. So I popped him into his sarong before going around clearing the "site". U think that's the end?? With the little devil, of course not! He wasn't going down quietly, someone had to swing him. And it's Big Sister Princess to the rescue. She swung him amidst the wailing so Mummy could do her stuff, while she was watching her DVD -- no complaints. Not to mention I was halfway through tying her hair into nice little plaits when the "commotion" happened.

The Princess was exceptionally good today. She volunteered to bathe herself after breakfast and did a pretty good job. It's a pity my network has been giving me problems uploading pics and videos......

My little darling, you really brightens my day. It's the last day of school, go enjoy your class party and bid sweet good-byes to your friends and teachers. Next year will be another fresh beginning.

Mommy, why does everyone want to be your friend??

That was what my Princess asked me yesterday. My answer to that -- Everyone wants to be your Di Di's friend, not my friend.

Those were the days when strangers came up to me to chat and play with my baby, commented about how chubby my precious was (with drum-stick thighs), wanting to carry her. Even when we were traveling, the language barrier was almost non-existent when even Japanese would come up to me and we would just "talk" with our hands and actions..... I thought those were the days long gone, till......

The Prince came along. I had always felt that the Princess was cuter, thus No.2 would not get as much attention. Apparently, I was WRONG, very WRONG. With those big round eyes and oh-so-familiar chubbiness, the Prince never fails to attract strangers wanting to be his "friends", especially when he's just so friendly, he smiles at practically anyone who coos and talks to him. Some of his funny antics, like pulling off his socks and chewing them in his mouth certainly adds to his "popularity" =p. So now, talking and smiling to strangers has again become part of my everyday life.

Hope that "Innocent" stare of yours can get us through immigration customs quicker if we should go overseas someday ; ).

~passport photo taken at 4 months

He Loves To......

As he grows and blossoms each day, he brings about new surprises. Together, we embark on our journey of discovery. Through it all, it is with his laughters, his smiles, that bring me tremendous happiness amidst the difficult times. 

Here are some things you love to do now, my little one, and I love them too :)

You love to SCREAM - When u want attention, when u r displease, when u r happy....

You love to LAUGH - Especially when u see Jie Jie n Mommy laughing at u

You love to GRAB - Your hands, your feet, anything that u can reach, and shove them into your mouth

You love to EAT - Ya, anything n everything u can get ur plump little hands on, and staring at people eating

You love to GET OUT OF THE HOUSE - Seems it's getting harder to entertain u

You love the AIRCON - And hates the heat

You love KICKING - That includes scratching your little feet against each other n cutting them

You love to be KPO - Even when u're feeding

There are just too many things that interest u now but I hope u'll always be interested in me.

My Baby Kang, soon u'll be 4 mths old......

It's been quite some time since I last blog about my little Princey, least talk about uploading his pictures. 2 more days n u'll be officially 4 mths old......

From the tiny little guy plagued by jaundice, frequently feeling tired n spending most part of ur days simply feeding n napping, suffering from colic n reflex thus wailing during almost every feed, wanting mummy n daddy to carry n rock u to sleep everytime and that BIG hernia on ur tummy...... it had been a TIRING yet truly FULFILLING time, especially having to struggle with another kid who needs equally much attention.

Today, the hernia is almost gone (merely a small stubble as compared to the 1 inch budge), u've gone from a tiny 3kg kitty to a respectable 7.7kg (as of last Fri). Although u're still pretty "gassy", it rarely bugs u. Much as I would like u to be able to sleep on ur own or through the night, u still need some help like swinging in sarong, breast feeding etc, however, I'm seeing some light at the end of the tunnel. For e.g., after u wake from a feed on the bed, sometimes u can go sooth urself to sleep again, though the frequent shaking of ur head against the bedding is probably going to cause some balding =P, u went to sleep this morning (n last evening) in ur rocker while I was making a rackets with the toys on them (Funny boy, with all the noise...).

Oh boy, some thing has not changed since Day 1 - u r one Greedy Pig. The Princess always needed to feed for at least 45min, even from the bottle. While u, my darling, needs just 5-10mins to finish ur meals most of the time. Good news is, u know when u're full and reject whatever attempts to feed u after that. But do u know that u can be really impatient during feeding?  Nowadays, everytime b4 Mummy's milk let down, u'll be frustrated till the milk comes flowing fast. Baby, I'm not a TAP. Just look at u staring at others eating. U're not ready yet, at least not for another 2-3 mths. Look at u gulping down ur probiotics! I can't catch up with u with a spoon!

Ur plump little hands, they are OH SO CUTE! To think Mummy hid them behind tiny mittens for a full 3 mths, all bcos u scratched urself so badly with those razor-sharp nails and we were too scared to trim them, in case we snipped ur little fingers (Daddy was guilty of that :( ). Once they were out of their little prisons, it didn't take them long to go on their escapade of exploration - aren't they beautiful? U never stopped marveling at them. U love to hold them together, as if u're praying, whenever u're feeding at my breast (thanking God for Mummy's milk??). It's ok if u love to tug at my shirt, bra etc but please my darling, don't PINCH me... sob sob... It'll be great if u can spare whatever u can get hold of from that little mouth of yours. Having ur little digits n clothing soaking wet with ur drool is more than "appetising" to look at already.

Mummy know that u do not like to be on ur tummy n hasn't quite gotten to flipping over yet, but u'd been doing a good job turning, getting on ur back from ur sides since u were 2 mths. Must be due to ur round, fat limps (like rolling a ball haha). And those back muscles, aren't they strong, trying to do sit-ups in ur car seat, rocker etc. Opps! Be careful! And u fell flat on ur face while sitting on the bed. Who asked u to lean forward?!

Soon, u'll be as big as jiejie. How I'll miss ur baby antics then...

(Been trying to upload pics n videos but can't seem to do so... sigh)

家有贱狗

很少提到我的长女--Fur Fur。

其实，有关她的故事还真不少！

这小捣蛋贪吃得很，只要一有机会，决不放过任何夺取食物的良机，即便是骨头，一旦被她刁到，你甭想能从她嘴里搅出。每当看到某人在进食，她一定凑过来，目的有两个：博取同情，摆出可怜兮兮的样子，盼能骗得你施舍些许食物给她。其二，则是趁人不备，从对方手中抢夺，并以迅雷不及掩耳的速度，将战利品吞食入肚。所有人都曾哉在她口下，特别是恩较小的时候，就常因此与她发生“口角”。

更厉害的是，她总会等到家无一人之时，跳上餐桌，只要让她嗅到一丝食物的气味儿，她一定用尽一切方法，将之取出，我们也因此折损了好几个塑料盒/罐。

不仅如此，她的性子跟一般小孩儿一样，如果太长时间被忽略，便会开始作“坏事”，如乱撕报纸，随地拉撒等等。最近一次，就发生在昨夜。我们吃了晚餐回来，一打开门，便看到满地的奶瓶盖、奶嘴......原来她弄翻了灭菌器，还刁走了瓶奶头去玩。这已不是第一次，在恩小的时候，她也曾偷过恩的奶嘴去吮吸，那画面还真搞笑！平时，她破坏一番后，一旦有人回来，便会“识相”地找地方躲藏。这回却更胜一筹，居然还搞离家出走，夹着尾巴头低低的往门外钻，不敢回来，直至她老爸把她抓回来。一进屋，便躲到长椅下，想必她也知道这次的篓子可闯大了！

可她也有可爱的地方。由于她是个大声婆，又挺“鸡婆”的，不管是电话响，还是有人回来，或是水沸了，她都要大声报告，结果不是吓倒康康，就是吵醒他。下场呢，就是被“封嘴”。一到下班时间，或是任何时候，我们事先知道会有人到访，一定会先裹上她的嘴，从那时起，她会变得惨兮兮、无精打采地趴在地上。通常她一看到有人拿出她的裹嘴带，便会找地方躲。今天，她却一反常态，在恩的爷爷来接她上学之前，竟然自动自发刁了她的裹嘴带给我老爸。难道她是要为昨天的过失赎罪？还是已经认命了？

真是家有贱狗！

我永远的宝

近几个月，脾气越来越暴躁，很容易为了小事发火，对恩也特别没耐性，无法忍受较高分贝的声量，下巴总是潜意思地咬得很紧，导致偏头痛。更可怕的是，对于自己的情绪，越发难以控制，真的感觉好像已经患上了--抑郁症。

为什么我会对孩子的多话感到厌烦？面对她的发问，总是表现得那么没耐性？动不动就对她吼叫......曾经何时，我变得那么恐怖、那么面目可憎？我真的很害怕，害怕在她的成长造成无法弥补的阴影，害怕从此失去这个孩子。这不是我想成为的母亲。

我的宝贝，如果有一天，你不再爱妈妈，认为妈妈讨厌你、不疼你，我希望你能原谅妈妈。

妈妈对你的爱，永远不会变 。

"Kindly" Advice

Be it with the Princess or the Prince, I'd been "blessed" with people who'd come to me with their "kindly" advices - u shouldn't carry/ rock the baby to sleep, u shouldn't/ should use the sarong, sucking the hand is better/ pacifier is better, u should supplement with formula etc etc.

Many a times, these "words of wisdoms" turned out to be contradictory, as they were based on the individuals' experiences n beliefs. But they were all done with the same motive - trying to tell me that I had done the WRONG thing. And that if I had started off with their method(s), things would have been easier....

U can say that I am difficult to "educate" or I'm plain stubborn, but the fact is, if I listened to every one of the well-meant advices, wouldn't my kids be totally confused? In the end, being "right" in the eyes of some, simply meant that I'm still doing the "wrong" things and I'd end up with frustrated kids who needed to be re-programmed again n again.

Who wouldn't want to do things the easy way, let the babies sleep on their own, "teach" them to sleep throughout the night, ensure they r free from colic/ reflux or whatever that's causing them discomfort? Before u start "sharing" ur "expert" views, do bear in mind that all babies r born unique, into families of differing cultures, made up of parents n grandparents having their own sets of beliefs, tolerance level n working manner. It would be really kind to share some experiences with people u see facing the same child-rearing difficulties, for e.g. "My baby had the same prob. I tried XXXX n it worked. Perhaps u may want to give it a try." But if ur intention is otherwise....

Imagine when u're trying to sooth a cranky baby to sleep, rocking n carrying him in ur arms, walking around. For those who r blessed with sleep-on-their own babies, u probably won't understand how frustrating n tiring this can be. How would u feel if someone comes up and say, "U shouldn't be rocking him/ her. That's y he's/ she's so used to it now." In the first place, if the baby can go to sleep without fussing n wailing ON THEIR OWN, why would anyone want to make life difficult for themselves? Anyway, such an "advice" does not offer any solution, and only serves the purpose of trying to "CORRECT" someone. If that's all the kindness u can offer, PLEASE, LEAVE ME ALONE!

I'm blessed with 2 kids that give me joy, to be able to see them daily, sharing their smiles n love. Though they r definitely not the ez-to-take-care type, both needing extra extra extra efforts to get them to sleep (though the prince seems a little better), I do appreciate some empathy n people willing to share ways they'd tried n worked, however if the best u can offer is pointing out my "mistakes", it will be most sympathetic of u to just zip-up.

THANK Q!!

The Yardstick of Life

How much does a human life cost? Difficult to quantify right.. I would have to say, it all depends....

Let me quote an e.g., Baby LOVED - born with multiple disabilities to a set of parents Bob n Jane, already tied down by mounting housing loans, credit card bills n loans from meeting everyday basic needs. The medical bills to be incurred for treating Baby LOVED, or just to extend his life for maybe a couple of years, perhaps just months or days meant that the family would be thrown into a spiraling whirlpool of financial distress. But never for a second did Bob n Jane stop to contemplate the course of action they should take. For them, it's a simple decision - No matter what they have to give up, they were willing to go forward, even if it meant that Baby LOVED could have just 1 more day left, they would make it the happiest day for him, whatever the cost. Baby LOVED died soon after, because Bob n Jane couldn't afford to send him to a better medical facility.

Just 2 streets down the road, in a pristine district where every household was guarded by high walls n stringent security, Baby Posh, born to Charles n Chloe, was given the best the moment she entered this world - clothing from the likes of LV, Ralph Lauren etc., Nursery decorated n furnished with the softest of silk.... but Daddy n Mummy were hardly at home. Well, Baby Posh had an entire cohort of servants, nannies to serve her, so it didn't matter. Once, Baby Posh fell n to the horror of her care takers, it left a scar on her pretty chin. When Charles n Chloe were informed of the mishap, they swiftly dialled the number of their trusted Aesthetic Surgeon. Within a couple of weeks, Baby Posh couldn't be any prettier than before.

Why, Baby LOVED's life is worth so little, some may say. It's just his "luck" to be born to parents like Bob n Jane. While Baby Posh, the princess of Charles n Chloe, with just a tinkle n her skin is bright as porcelain again.

How can we compare the value of one whose life is worth ALL the love of his parents to one whose just worth whatever money could buy? I know many beg to differ...

Ultimately, how much is my life worth?? For some, perhaps as much as the air we breathe (I certainly hope so) or for others, less than the few shillings in their pockets lying in a stash of notes???

I Wish

I wish upon the stars,

to watch upon my precious,

keep them safe from harm,

let them sleep in peace.

I wish upon the wind,

let my troubles fly,

as far as u can,

let me be free.

I wish upon the bright, bright sun,

shine upon me, with all your might,

cast my gloominess aside.

Show me a path, to the paradise I so longed for......

Why is there such a person????

I really don't understand, is it so difficult to respect other's privacy, leave them some breathing space?

Why? Why? Why? When I show u some degree of friendliness, u have to test that limit, comes over everyday, always around dinner and to top it off - WITHOUT INFORMING ME!

Can't u learn to respect other's time? I may not be free, I may have to feed my baby, I may want to go out?

Can't u respect other's space? I may not wish to entertain guests, I may want to do my own things, I may simply want some quiet time.

It's really dejavu, cos I had seen these images clearly in my mind before, and it's happening real time now. And I'm absolutely pissed cos it has been proven again that he will always be someone else's son.....