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Friday, 14 December 2007

Please Pull Through......

Dec 14 7.30am

Couldn't sleep well. Woke up when it was ard 5+ in the evening Singapore time. Tossing and turning from then on. Finally it's 7am here in Utah. In a moment, I'll be able to 'see' my family.

7.15am, B is not online. 7.25am, not online. 7.35am, still not online. This is abnormal. I should call home. Nobody answers. Call Dad then, no answer. Call Mum, B and R's mobile. All turned off. No!! This can only mean 1 thing. Someone must be in hospital, the only place where people have to turn their hp off! I must get someone. The only one who seems to have his hp on is Dad. I shall call him again. "Beep, beep" goes my hp. A message from B! "Call Dad on his hp." "Where r u people? Y didn't anyone answer?" Dad said,"In hospital. Ah gong's was admitted. He fainted suddenly while watching TV. Just wheeled out. Doc said brain haermorrage. If he is to be operated, likely to become a vegetable." Why??!! Why must my hunch be so accurate??

I should get a flight back asap. Not again! No economy tickets available! Even if I upgrade to business or first class, the flight hrs is ridiculous!!! 40- over 50hrs! How to fly for so long with a 2 yr old?? Next possible available flight is on 20 Dec. If anything bad really happened, I won't even be in time for......

Why must all the bad things happen to me?? I didn't get to see my grandpa before I flew as it was a last min change. Had wanted to call him after I arrived, but I procrastinated. Now, I don't wish to live with another regret. I regretted I didn't spend more time with my grandma when she passed away 3 yrs ago. Please... not this time.... Let grandpa pull through, even if it takes a miracle.

6 comments:

skhim said...

heh, is there anything i can help? Pls, if there is anything, let me know. Call me anytime. Meantime, don't panic. It won't help things. Must calm down, ok? Be strong, my friend.

babyvinz said...

YY, SQ, MM and all my other dear dear gal pals,

Thanks for your very generous and kind offer to help. I really, really appreciate it. But I can't accept it. I'm very touched. As of now, I haven't had any updates. Pls help to pray for the situation to improve. That's all I ask from all of you. Thank you!!

Unknown said...

My dear friend,

I will pray hard for you...in the meantime..stay positive!

*hugs hugs hugs*

skhim said...

RY, dont worry abt other issues first. Shall we just get the tickets and fly you back first? Or when is the earliest return tic u can get? All of us are right here praying for you too. Hang in there, ok?

Anonymous said...

Stay strong... remember we are behind you and will give you our full support.

Anonymous said...

Ye...Positive thinking is very crucial at this moment. Stay positive in your thoughts and all will work towards what u want. :)

I will pray for you and your grandpa.

Let us know any further development on your side.