Carpe Diem - easier said than done for a self-professed procrastinator. But for the love of my life, I finally keyed my first sentence, then the second, and the third... as a recording of memories I'd want to remember, good or bad, a gift from Mommy to U - Dear Baby En

"From Baby En to Baby Kang, both my darlings, equally precious. May this journal keep u company, when Mummy can no longer be there......"

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Friday, 16 November 2007

坏妈妈

发现每个月生理周期起变化的那一、两个星期,脾气会变得特别急躁,完全失去忍耐的能力。

常因为一些小事情,跟孩子大喊大叫。可怕的是,情况好像越来越糟。今天一大早,又为了孩子闹情绪而发火。整个人好像疯子一样,跟她大吼,“讨厌”、“irritating”等可怕的话脱口而出。一直喊,一直喊,一直喊.....完全失去自制的能力,还出手打了她。一巴掌打了下去,她没静下来,还拿藤条在小手心抽了两下。

宝贝,对不起!

我到底发生了什么事?希望只是最近为安排到国外的事,比较烦燥而已。最好不是得了忧郁症......

2 comments:

skhim said...

我想,这是压力的症状。也许忙到太盲了,精疲力竭了,所以无法好好的控制好情绪。有两个方法,一:找些朋友诉苦聊天,让心情顺畅些(因为搞不好其他人也面临一样的生活压力);二:尽情放肆地大哭一场(因为如此能让情绪宣泄,哭到累了,也无力生气了)!

Anonymous said...

When kids go on their tantrums it can be very frustrating for parents.

I read once in a magazine that laughing aloud out of the blue when the child is in a tantrum can be a good way to distract the child and at the same time relieve stress for the parent.

I tried it once and true enough, Jiaheng stopped what he was doing and looked at me. Then I did something else to re-focus his attention. The whole episode ended faster than usual.